Ever since I had to use lipstick for work, I fell in love with the mixing of colors in my lips. Even though I already have naturally pink lips, I feel that they are really bland as compared to using lipstick. Prior to this lipstick craze, I thought that if I were to go with minimal makeup and to look presentable (like going for dinner at a nice expensive restaurant), mascara or a simple eyeliner was a must.

But they take time to put on, and I keep forgetting that I have eye makeup on and thus I keep rubbing my eyes, smudging black stuffs around. .-. Moreover, I have the stupid occasional flare up of my eczema on my eyelids, causing me to look like someone has punched me hard on my eyes. Avoiding eye makeup became something understandable. *shrugs*

But with lipstick, I just need a few seconds and voilà, I'm done. WHEEE - I can look more of a grown up now!

I think I already have a nice eyes (not inclusive of eye bags and dark circles) and okay eyebrows, pinkish cheeks because of pimples/scars on my cheeks; makeup didn't seem mandatory in dressing up. I'm just so lazy, heh.

Oh well, I gotta look my age; I'm going 19 soon. And after that, 20. Last year to be a teenager. *SIGH*

PSSH.

Will not be lazy and make myself do a post on my trip to Taiwan after CNY. 

I'm so frustrated with my face. It's like when my face is quite clear, there always has to be this one huge painful pimple somewhere. Then after when this pimple clears and my face is starting to look better, more come to attack. ARGHHHHHH! *annoyed growl*

I mean, fine, I give it to my body that I just have to have pimples. But why must they freaking hurt like mad?! Then because I have painful pimples, I can't wash my face as clean as I should have. Then, more pimples outbreak. BLEH.

I really missed the times when I had no pimples to worry about. I remember when I got my first pimple, I was 11. It outbroke at the most awkward of all places. It was between my eyebrows, on my forehead. .-. So when it got red and all, I became an Indian (no racial insults meant, honest!). And my friends all laughed at me. Being fair-skinned is not that all good. When you get pimples they can be seen easily. When you have eyebags and dark circles, they are amplified. And you get irritating dark spots/moles that just becomes darker. Honestly, I don't even know how these moles even come about. They just appear without me even realizing. My mom used to have quite a lot of moles on her face. But she went to get them removed by laser. Lucky her. Now my mom's really pretty. :D (Not that she wasn't pretty before getting her moles removed)

Why didn't I get my mom's skin? ): Her face is pretty clear, only the occasional tiny pimples. But still she looks pretty! I love my mom a lot. HEHE. Although sometimes she can be quite naggy/annoying. But that's what moms do.

I found this picture which I took as part of doing my passport photo thing.


I wished my face was at least this clear! If I had like the guts, money, and know-how, when my face maintains clearness in the future, I would definitely get rid of like dark spots/freckles/moles on my face. Especially the mole on my chin and 2 freckles/dark spots on my forehead. I didn't have them when I was younger... I also didn't have those on my cheeks but they're not too obvious when I see myself in the mirror.

I don't know why my wrist's hurting. Feels like some kind of a sprain although I don't see how that could happen. And I need to get more active! GOSH. Eating lesser doesn't help. ): I've already been trying to not eat carbs for lunch and rice for dinner but it's not helping much. SIGH.

OH WELL. I'm so nervous tomorrow; I hope I don't freak out and be a scaredy cat and just forget about it.

I started using my "new" com about 2 days ago. It was running on Windows 8 and I really hated it, so I decided to downgrade it to Windows 7. My brother said that he had the CD for it so I thought, "might as well." BUT, downgrading wasn't as easy as I thought that it would be. Well, actually it was sorta but I made it slightly difficult.

I just opened the setup in the CD and let the thing run. But, when restarting, the com needed to decide whether to run Windows 8 or Win7 setup (CD). But when I tried to run the setup, an error appeared.

I decided to check online on my mom's com to see if I could fix things. There were 2 options given which could be accessed via the BIOS menu thingy (I have no idea what it is).

1. Disable secure boot
2. Enable legacy boot

Don't ask me what they are, I have no clue. So, I decided to go with the secure boot thing because it sounded more familiar than "legacy". It managed to go past the error screen but when Windows was starting, it just hanged at the logo screen. Pretty frustrating huh.

Then I decided to try out  this legacy boot thing. I read the little info they gave to describe what it does. Apparently, if you enable legacy boot, you can run Windows 7 and below. But if you disable it, you can only run Windows 8. So I guess that meant that I would have to turn it on. And it worked!

Okay, I'm pretty silly because when the Windows 7 setup was complete, I panicked; there was no wireless, ethernet cable doesn't help, and I can't even use the usb port. I was like shit shit shit. I thought that if I returned back to Windows 8, it would be better.

And so, I went to disable the legacy boot so as to run Windows 8 again. BUT!!!! Because I'm such a noob with this thing who doesn't read up enough and just goes ahead without hesitation, I hadn't partition the hard drive. If I'm not wrong, because I hadn't partitioned it, Windows 7 just overwrote my Windows 8. MEANING, my com doesn't have Windows 8 any more. NO MORE!

So, while I was still silly, thinking that I was so smart so as to disable the legacy boot, the com isn't able to start. Because legacy boot is disabled, it can only run Windows 8 (which was no more) and NOT Windows 7. OH MY GOODNESS. *big gasp*

And the thing was, I couldn't bring up the BIOS menu during bootup. *dramatic music* which meant, that I couldn't enable legacy boot. I felt so so stupid, because my apparently new com is now redundant. *CRIES*

After many tries later, I managed to get the BIOS menu up somehow. I don't really know how, I just randomly pressed the buttons, and I finally got back to Windows 7. Now, to download the drivers. BUT HOW? There was not internet connection or usb connection. DIE! .-. My only resort was to try using a CD to transfer, and if didn't work, I'm a total goner.

It worked! :D And I managed to download the drivers on. Some took a lot of tries because the drivers were meant for Windows 8 and not 7 so I had to keep trying over and over again different drivers. I finally managed to get the ethernet on and soon the wireless (which took me like a whole day to get). Now the only thing left is bluetooth; it can't send/receive via bluetooth so I have to keep working on that. But that is not really crucial so I'll just take my time.

So now finally I can enjoy my "new" com in Windows 7. Stupid Windows 8.

I'm quite impressed by picture editing apps that you can get on your phones, especially those that can "beautify" you. It's like, you don't even need photoshop any more; it becomes redundant in some way. You can liquify, enlarge your eyes, remove eyebags, remove blemishes, put on makeup, and more - all on your phone! Gosh!

Okay, I have been so amazed by this thing, so when I have selfies, and I'm not too lazy to go re-folder them (yes, I have to have folders for everything) and edit them, I use this app called 美人相机 (mei ren xiang ji). If I'm not wrong, it's from the same people who did 美图秀秀 (mei tu xiu xiu), except that it's specifically for beautifying yourself. Both apps have about the same beautifying features. *I think*

Well anyway, normally I'll just choose some filter that makes my face less pimply and nicer. I don't really bother editing too much unless the pic is nice (to me) and I have nothing better to do.

I'm going to show you 2 pics that I have on hand right now. I haven't really mastered the art of beautifying via the app yet, so the "after" pics may be quite weird (especially the first one because it doesn't look well proportioned, but I'm too lazy to go redo or whatever). And please pardon the "before" pics which are how I actually look like without any filters to cover up ugly stuffs. Yes, I look like that. And, I wasn't *trying* to be pretty, just wanted to test out the app because I was too bored already.

Don't judge me! :O







When I was playing around with it, I was thinking, "This is so way freaking cool!" Like now, you can take a selfie, and if you're too lazy to put on makeup and stuffs, you can let the app do it for you. How cool is that? Although it might look kinda fake, it's still some sort of natural-like if you look from far.

I love how I can change my eye color! Whee! I don't have to put on colored contacts to get the effect! GREEN EYES! My favourite! I think I can pull off that eye color if I had the chance.

And I love how when I put the fake lashes, they still look quite normal. AS COMPARED to when I do it in real life. I think I really look weird with makeup. :O And and and, I can never pull off the red lipstick in real life. I think I look like a mess! *honestly* Because my lips are quite swollen and red already (from the stupid eczema thing), and I have this bits of red skin around my lips, so having red lipstick will just amplify the ugliness of it all. (You can actually see the red botch of skin in the 2nd "before" pic. :/ *sigh*)

Oh gosh, it makes me happy to know that I can be pretty in some *manipulated* way. Heh.

Maybe when my face clears up, my eyebags flatten and lighten, and my cheeks lose fats, I can try on makeup and see if I still look like a freak. :D But I really wish I can have the colored contacts! Nowadays I'm staying away even from contacts, because it's gets blurry and I feel kinda blind. But mainly to hide some of my pimples and eyebags behind the glasses. HEE.

Green irises, with red hair. SO PRETTY! I'm still thinking about it.

I was even thinking of just dying my whole head like light green-blue-turquoise. Because I'm *quite* fair, so it would give it a gothy look. LOVE! Actually, I really love the dark, gothy style, but I never seem to get the shoes and clothes and all. ):

I've been having the black bands things around my wrist for 7 years or so. I'm gothy inside. :D I think like lip and eyebrow piercing are really cool to have, but I'm scared of the needle and the troublesome-ness. Still can't persuade my mom to let me get more ear piercings though. I could get it on my own, but I'm a good girl and shall listen to my mom. :)

Maybe when I can get the body shape of a goth-girl, I can consider about the whole look.

Let me tell you a secret...

Shh...

Actually, I haven't slept yet. I've been awake since yesterday. I shouldn't have drank coffee. ):

Okay, I did nap but it was because Maths was boring the shit out of me, so my brain shuts down.

I think whenever things bore me, my brain just shuts down and goes to sleep. WEIRD. I'm weird like that.

It has been a while since I've typed so much, I ought to have more things happening in my life! Correction: more FUN things. Perhaps, I'm just plain o' boring. *yawn*

MEH.

Enjoy laughing at my ugly pics, bye. .-. *runs off to hide myself*

Note to self: Don't do this kind of thing again, Charissa. You're going to regret it.