I haven't had really proper sleep this week plus. Been sleeping quite late regularly, not good. .-. And even with the lights off, and me being snuggled up under my covers, it's still not good enough. Why? Because somehow or the other, di and I will like talk non-stop about random topics. And despite the number of times I say "Okay, go to sleep now", we'll end up talking again. .-.

Although I love my di a lot and is great to have company at night, I think he should have his own room. .-.

Anyway, I think I should sorta give up the idea of being able to do sports and stuffs for now. Because the recent check up, the doctor says that I should be careful. As in, we don't want the knee to dislocate again post op. It'll be REAL bad. If it does, I would have to go for trochleoplasty which no one in Singapore is able to do. Because it's only done in France. :O And it'll be like a major operation because they'll have to remove my cartilage, re-groove my knee and put my cartilage back. And it'll most likely be like a million times more painful than the op that I did.

Actually, even as much as I want the sports stuff to happen, somehow I feel like the me now is like someone who don't do sports at all. Even if I do get better, I just have a phobia. It sorts of prevents me from doing stuffs. And I'll most likely forget how to run and jump properly with my left knee.

AND NOW, after my left knee recovers and is strong again, the right knee will be a consideration (says the doctor). I guess it's reassuring to know that something has been done...

But, the left knee still freaking moves. .-. The first few days after I removed the bandage it's sorta stiff and in place and I was all pleased and shit stuffs. But after like slowly able to bend, it moves! ): SO NOT REASSURING! Even though it's tighter now in a way, it's really a disappointment that it still moves. But maybe it'll hold in place when I'm using the leg, *shrugs*

Even though the doctor knows it still moves, he says it is an improvement, and I have to agree with that. But it's still pretty wobbly and I don't want to go check it out for fear it gets worse. My bending's a lot better now which is good. YAYS. I was so scared that I would never be able to bend my leg because the stiffness is really really scary.

Now I walk with a slight limp (yet again) and I'm sorta worried that it'll affect my hip (again). Because last time I compensated my left leg with my right, and my hip was totally uneven, like one up one down. And if I try to walk equally on both legs, I'll have to take really really tiny steps which is SLOW. -.-

OH DEARY ME.

And oh yeah, yesterday was Christmas. Well, I realized that as I grow older, Christmas isn't like Christmas at all. When I was younger we didn't really get gifts at all. But at least we had a Christmas tree. Now, it's just like some any other day. Such a sad childhood for me. No Christmas presents, no birthday presents either.

We watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 3 and it was really cute, especially Theodore. :D Fat and chubby and cute. Why can't I have a talking chipmunk too?! ):

And I really like how they sing, it's like all different notes, so nice!

LALALALALA.

HEHE BYES.