Today, my left knee popped again. It seems like it has happened so many times that I might have lost count. We were at Macy's and wanted some water, but the escalators were not working, so climbing down the flight of steps were one of the option. And then nearing the end, my left leg went down first, then it popped.
I think the scariest part really is that the whole leg bends in such and awkward position and it gets locked there. I dropped my water bottle (which didn't matter at the moment), and had to straighten my leg whilst standing. And the lady in front of me was like (to me) "I saw it popped back in". Yeah freaky right. ._. The staff there were nice and got for me a chair to sit on. My whole leg was like totally screwed - the nerves, tendons and whatever shit's in there. I think this time's the worst though it might not seem so. Maybe it's because I had to step on the already weird-ed leg to stand on my right side.
Well it happened so fast so I can't remember exactly what happened, because in situations like these, the longer it takes for everything to be in alignment, the more the damage is. And I've been so worried about this actually taking place that, it seems nothing to be surprised about.
Feelings about this?
Sad, angry, disappointed, pain, I don't know what to feel really, it's like accepting some kind of fate thing. *shrugs* But I'll definitely feel more of the sad and disappointment bit if this happened after my surgery. Like totally. Because even though the doctor can give like some percentage of success for that surgery, I still think it's safer if I just replace the whole knee. Which would be sorta out of the norm because that's for old people who have worn out knees. What to do? ):
Now it hurts real bad. Like I've said, the worst of all I suppose. And it feels REALLY loose right now, like it constantly needs to be "cracked" (to be aligned properly).
Just for my bad memory, I'm just gonna write down all the times it has happened.
- 10 years old
- 12 years old
- 13 years old
- 14 years old
- 15 years old
- L Poland
- L Light jogging at home
- 16 years old
I really hope I don't need to add any more to this list. It's really scary when it comes because it's really super random. And I like things to be planned, if not I get hay-wired, well sorta. :D
I hope I can get better before the New York blahblah trip. :/ Don't want mummy to waste money by cancelling cause she paid full already. ):
You better stay where you outta be, stupid knees, if not I'll... I'll... I'll take your allowance for the rest of your lives. :OOOOOO
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Till then. :D
And you know what was the first thing I said?
"At least I didn't fall down the steps."
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