If you really know me, you will know that I'm a complete different person from what I write online or on the phone. It just makes me wonder if I'm being such a phony, tricking people who know me online into thinking I'm such a person (of whatever they think of me, of course). It's not that I go against my real self, disbelieving the morals I have or changing the opinions that I strongly believe in, but it's just that I feel I don't say whatever I "say" in real life. Does that make me fake?

When it's online or on the phone, I have the liberty to say things that I don't have to be brave enough to say. I'm naturally shy so maybe I'm such a big ass coward that I don't speak things freely. But whatever I write online or on the phone, has been processed by my mind, so it's got to be still me right? 

Now hear comes the next part. So, what if someone likes your other self but not your real self? (Note: I'm not talking about love-like.) Have you become 2 different people then? One likable and the other not. Then in that case, are you still who you are you think you are? Are you fake now? It's hard to decide when both ideas start to clash.

But why is it that the someone you aren't whom doesn't exist in this world have to be the likable one? Can you exchange roles? After all, what's more "important" is who you are in real, it's just reality isn't it? You can't possibly have someone just "living" with your fake self every single day of your life. It's just not possible. What about human interaction? None? Then it's just a bummer then.

But what are you to do? How can you in-cooperate someone that doesn't exist into your reality? I wish I could be that someone. I want to be. I like her so much that even I myself dislike who I am. 

Can I switch with you, non-existent one?