Sometimes there are thoughts you feel need to be written down (or maybe typed out). But the mere fact that you are able to read those thoughts just after writing them down (or typing them out) is pretty creepy, in a way. I mean, what if those thoughts are meant to be kept secret and are your innermost stuffs? Seeing them in words doesn't make them so secretive after all.
Nahhs, I'm just babbling. I had many urges to just randomly write about my day during the past week but the feeling of reading these thoughts sorta scared me. And then another thought of like, "Who would even read them in the first place?" came. Honestly, I don't re-read anything I had written down cause obviously I know what's next. DUHH~
I wonder who I'm writing to. :/ Like how some people write in their diaries and begin with "Dear Diary,". I wonder who my "Diary" aka my audience is. But I really think all this writing is just to sort thoughts in my mind. I have like junkful of thoughts all piled up messily in my mind and maybe writing is a way to sort them out little by little.
But it's good to have so much thoughts right? (Notice that I use "much" instead of "many".) That got to mean that I have at least an opinion on something I have come in contact with. Wait, is having that many opinions good to start off with? Oh bother.
I don't really take any "camwhore" shots anymore cause I really think it's like so fake in a way. Here's why:
1. I'm not pretty so why bother trying to be?
2. Even if the picture turns out nice, the person in the picture definitely isn't me in real life.
3. Who on earth is going to see?
Even seeing a nice picture of myself gets both negative and positive feedbacks (from myself).
Positive: Hey! I look pretty in this picture! ^^
Negative: I don't look like that at all. *frowns*
So, why bother? :D
And and and, I'm really curious what is one's motivation to live. Because I reckon I'm pretty disillusioned about the whole idea of life.
So,
What is your motivation to live?
I wonder who's going to answer me. (:
Ooh ooh, Charissa! Pick me! Me me me me!
Yes Charissa?
My motivation is FOOD. Yums~
.-.
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