I thought I could do it, I really did. And I did try too. But it seems like that there was something that pulled me down. There will be regrets in making decisions because there is never a perfect decision in this world (other than the decisions that God had made, those are the perfect ones). And sometimes I do wonder if what I did was right, I hope it is.

I wonder how others see the world and the people living in it. What are their views? Views of a certain person maybe? Do they judge fairly? Because I think there are people who misjudge others before and maybe after really knowing them. It ain't fair right? But we can't change their mindset, so I guess we should let them be. But the feeling of being misjudged hurts sometimes. I'm not sure about others, but I don't like being misjudge and accused. Cause it ain't the truth.

But I think it doesn't matter really. Maybe what matters is the feeling of being remembered by someone. Someone might go like this, "Hey, I was thinking about you lately, how are you? (:". The feeling just melts your heart somehow I guess. It makes you think that you're special. That someone cares.

But it doesn't last forever in any way.

I wonder what does.

I was thinking lately about how some people would like let's say their parents or their grandparents to have a long life. Who wouldn't right? I mean I pray that my parents and my grandmother would live as long as they can, maybe my brother too. But as for me, I wouldn't want to live so old. I don't really see the point anyway.

I would want to die at a young age, but death is something that you cannot control, just like the time you were born.

Thinking about it, I realised that love is also something you cannot control. Wonder why.

I hardly watch tv programs now. And I really think that it's a funny thing because I used to be a tv-addict. I would watch shows till the wee hours and always had arguments with my mummy about it. I could remember the timings shows were on. But now? *shrugs*

The days I looked forward to seem to go by so quickly.

Piglet is always by my side, with me when I sleep regardless of the dreams I have, good or bad. I love him so much. ^^ But sometimes I feel like I'm neglecting Pooh and Tigger. :O

Bang. :D