in case you don't get what i mean, i was talking about my piano exam today. before that, all i could think of was the exam pieces.

i would say this time round i practiced really hard for it, as compared to my previous exams. seriously, i didn't even bother to memorise the sharps or flats of a certain key for my scales. i didn't even bother to take note of my FINGERING. it was more of impromptu there and then i came up with a screwed scale. yups. but now, it's so much different. :OOOOO

i did make quite a number of mistakes throughout the whole exam. pieces, scales, arpeggios, sight-reading, and aural. (practically it's everything lurhh.) but somehow, just somehow i didn't feel like i screwed it up. not sure if that's the same thinking the examiner has. BUT because i didn't stop. my stop here means like totally stop and suddenly lose track of what i'm supposed to play. because when i play the piano, i don't really use my brain to think of the next note so if i accidentally played wrongly and stopped, i would "snap out of my fadai-ing" and have no clue what i'm doing.

the room wasn't as cold as the other exam rooms i had my exam at before. which is a good thing. (: the examiner was a 40++-looking-years old male (really, does the gender and age of the examiner matter?) and he looked quite friendly. though i couldn't catch his accent at the speed he spoke.

but the scariest thing which i didn't expect at all was that the piano was SOFT touch and it really scared me when i played it, because it was so very loud. oh my goodness. and there are advantages and disadvantages of having a soft touch piano. the good thing is that you won't be so tired after playing on it. HOWEVER, you would make a mistake with the slightest touch of a key. so yeah. (i can use that as an excuse of why i made more mistakes than usual. XD)

so yeah, i hope i can pass, i don't expect a distinction or merit. (though a merit would be good.) but a pass is enough. (:

there are certain stuffs that i've got to chiong during the weekend if possible. (because weekends for charissa is almost the same as not having weekends.)

my birthday's coming soon. :D :D :D if it weren't from the reminders of mummy, didi, choir practice and blahblahs, i might have forgotten all about it. seriously. i almost forgot about it before. but birthdays now are like so boring. i can understand why i anticipated my birthdays when i was younger. we had birthday parties then. right? (: but now it's like. oh birthday? okay. my birthday. "yays"! i'm older already. .-.

but i don't really like the age 15. i like 14. the number 14 for an age is like lovely. ♥ and not forgetting 17 and 18. (and maybe 19) the rest is all crap.

every time i see a toddler, i will like smile at him/her like a weird psychopath. XD is this going to be a bad habit? but then they are like so cute! today on the way home, walked passed this mother and her toddler (girl). and then i smiled at her the way i normally do to toddlers. and you know what she did? she looked up at me and smiled back at me! SO CUTE SIA! (what can i say? i attract little kids. hahahahahas. XD jealous? :P [okay no lahh. .__.])

there's this fear in me beating right at my chest. don't ask me why because i would shrugandgiveyouananswerofidk. (:

had a blood test done yesterday. think i tweeted about how amazed i was.


but seriously. it's really amazing. i mean if i were to think of inserting a needle into my skin, i think i would freak out. i just can't imagine "inflicting pain" in a way like this. it's too horrible and cruel. but somehow i felt like the arm wasn't mine any more at the point of time. it didn't hurt at all. and it's quite fascinating that the needle actually went like UNDER the skin. UNDER! like so cool/awesome/scary/crappy right! :D and the blood flowing out. oh my goodness! it's like watching some beautiful movie when watching the blood flowing out. *ahem* this is not too be mistaken as the desire of blood. *ahem*

i think because i'm used to the needle, i might actually consider donating blood when i'm of the legal age which i don't know when. my blood would help save lives! so awesome. ^^ and to think it another way, i'm saving a life without using any force at all. super power!

m'okay it's time to sleep. yes. sleep. no. sleep. yes. sleep. sometimes the reason why i don't like to sleep is because when i sleep, i'm like wasting time. (in a way) but who cares. anyway, hope that i can sleep in or at least wake up later tomorrow. :P

nights anybody out there reading this..