i know i haven't been updating my dailies these few days. (awwww..) but it's not really because i'm down right lazy or something. it's because..

1. my life is freaking boring.

2. i normally blog at night but now i can't because mummy doesn't allow me to use the com at night. super sad.

and i really think that my brain is dying bit by bit as days go by, seriously. i don't know why, but it seems like the medicine that i'm taking doesn't seem to help much.

i take a long long long time to go to sleep at night, and furthermore, i don't really actually "sleep" like how normal people do. apparently, because of my fibromyalgia, i'm suffering from alpha EGG anomaly. i've yet to go google/yahoo that out yet. but, the brief sorta definition is that:

i don't really go into the sleep phase. that deep sleep part i suppose. i stay in the dream mode sorta throughout my sleep. and thus, i don't really "sleep" at night which might seem like i'm doing so. my body is not able to heal because our bodies heal by themselves during the sleep phase but since i'm not able to go through it....

well anyway, i will be fatigue in the day, and because of the fatigue-ness, it's sometimes hard to sleep. so, i actually feel like i'm awake 24/7 all the time. @.@ and i'm easily worn out and stuff.

so, if i'm back in school, i don't think i would find it a surprise that i am tired the whole day. (now i know why i have panda eyes.)

it's hard to concentrate too. i can't really think straight. (not that kind of straight if you know what i mean.) and sometimes the reason why i sleep in class (mainly chinese), is because it's freaking boring. cause my mind is already "asleep" so if i have a teacher literally putting me to sleep, won't my brain succumb to the rest it needs?

and there i go babbling away. (who's interested what's happening to me anyway? [maybe only mummy.[)

this sucks. my whole life sucks. i'm afraid i might go into depression because that's one of the symptoms of firbromyalgia. and apparently, i might gain weight too. i would definitely not let these 2 happen.

so i must remain happy, yays. :D

and maybe if you've read my tweets, my ds is totally wrecked. ): but still playable, but not in a good condition. i seriously can't believe it. because, i take very good care of my things. but some how they just spoil. ):

how bad is my ds now?

1. my A button is spoiled. (doesn't have that button feeling and it's hard to press it rapidly.) but this wasn't my fault. didi spoiled it for me. and his promise to help me fix it about almost a year ago, is yet to be fulfilled.

2. the bottom of the upper screen has gone bonkers. and it's starting to spread upwards. (it's really really hard to read stuff.)

3. the hinge cracked yesterday. have no idea how but it did. and when i mean by crack, i really mean a big crack. not some hair-line crack. the thing literally split like it's doing the splits. it's so damn crappy now. it's not as smooth as before when it comes to opening the ds.

and i have a bad feeling that it's because of the hinge problem which affected the screen. because the screen just got worse. maybe it started off as a little unnoticeable hairline crack. hmmm..

and didi wanted to get me a psp too. (with the help of daddy.) which is a good thing. :D but then, now that my ds is seriously in a bad shape, i also want a new one. ): mummy asked me yesterday how much it cost, i reckon it's about a $150+++? (i have no idea) but i also told her i also wanted a psp but she only asked me to choose one. ):

i seriously want to cry. and i'm really scared that i might not even get a psp or even a new ds because i'm getting a new phone. what bad timing! ):

oh yeah, talking about the phone which i might be getting. because we're not say very rich. even if we were, mummy wouldn't let me get an expensive phone. even my conscience wouldn't let me get one. anyway, i had actually wanted to get an iphone. yups.

and mummy had also wanted one. but our reasons are like so different can. if i were to ask you who deserved it more, i think i would get it lor.

me: my phone's shitty. it doesn't have camera, cannot have external memory, no songs. blahs.
reason: i like touch screens (which explains my tablet and ds), and i like the iphone. and i had liked it since its release. but i know it's super expensive.

mummy: i need to take pictures. (which her phone already can).
reason: everyone in my workplace has one. -.-

and mummy always loses her phone. (had already lost 2). and she always get a nice phone. so unfair lahh. and she's not those tech person. what's she going to do with an iphone?

okay, whatever my point was, i'm not getting an iphone. far too expensive. so,

i've thought of another phone.