"hey charissa, what happened to you yesterday? didn't blog, didn't tweet, so unlike you. :O"

not that i had "died" yesterday, but it was more of that i couldn't see properly. @.@

*big gasp*

okays, i'm not saying that i'm blind or whatever. hear me out first.

yesterday was more like a follow-your-mummy-to-work day. :D so i had to wake up real early, like mummy, and leave home early, like mummy. :D took the train to outram, like mummy and walk up the hill, like mummy. ^^

ate my breakfast at sgh (kopitiam), and the fishballs from the fishball noodles are real nice. (: they were big, round, fat, chewy, not fishy, and super uber delicious! i was taking my time to eat them, small bite by small bite. YUMS! ^^

after breakfast, i waited for mummy to come pick me up (she had gone to her office), and off we went to the singapore national eye centre. (it's nearby the blocks at sgh.)

we had to wait really really really long before it's my turn. ): had lots of ahmas and ahgongs that were waiting to see the doctors. when it was finally my turn, the doctor had wanted to dilate my eyes and do some tests.

maybe some people have no idea what dilate means, here's fyi (for your information).

dilate: make or become wider, larger, or more open.

at first when the nurse helped me put the eye drops which are actually medicine, my eyes felt like they were swollen. like my eyelids had no strength. well actually, the medicine was meant to paralyze my eyes, so..

as a result, i can only see things in the middle range. when things get too close to my eyes, i can't see, it gets all blurry. quite weird huh. i even had problems eating my lunch cause i had to "contain" the food in the spoon before going to my mouth. but i can't even see the spoon. *smacks head*

reason why i went to see the doctor?

it seems that even with the maximum degree that the optician had given me for my specs, i can't seem to see clearly when it's far. (like in the classroom.) well, i know it's my astigmatism but it looks like i just need to live with it - taking a longer time to concentrate on the numbers/letters before determining what they are.

also, from what the doctor said, i have night blindness, which means i can't see clearly in the night. (when it's very dark.) a reason why i was like a blind bat during the mid-autumn festival in school. i couldn't see anybody. ):

but i might be quite a good blind girl cause i can locate most things in the dark with just my hands. (:

and the doctor gave me a prescription (is that what you call it?) to make a new pair of specs with a lower degree. it seems that i am able to see the same with the lower degree. (: new specs~ hahas. and the doctor said not to spend so much as i might not like it, so.. maybe i can get those geek specs. (: (dumb dumb dumb idea.)

and i really didn't use much of the computer today. (: but i also started playing maple again. everything changed. :O and so, i am a noob character now. hahas, and my di own me like crazy. level 50+. O.O (and that's a computer addict) and he claimed that he leveled till that in just a few days or something. (speechless?)


and i've got a question bugging me.

"Why do some people just like to follow others just because it's what everybody else is doing and not because they really have a real reasonable reason?"

i mean it's totally pointless because you don't really believe what you're doing and you're just deceiving yourself into believing that you believe in what you're doing. confused already?

you've just got to be yourself. if everybody else in the world, except me, follows everybody else, won't that make me the special and unique one? follow follow follow, like sheep. not even going with their hearts.

so sometimes when i look at certain people, i would go, "typical people. seen so many of those types already." don't you agree? it's something like, (imagine this)

the sheep people are black in colour. want to notice someone in the crowd of sheep people? hard. cause why? they all look the same. and suddenly you see a different person. the one who doesn't follow the crowd. oh, that guy is red. when the non-follower walks in a crowd of followers, the only person you would see would be the red one. no?

"the non-follower is someone unique and different, he's just being himself. and that's what makes him special."

i'm not saying that one shouldn't follow the latest trends right now, it's just that we should all do something that we agree with.

okay, let's say hair extensions are quite "in" with the young girls right now. i agree, they are nice and all. but i don't agree having the idea of fake hair. i mean, just grow your own. (:

i totally disagree with hair extensions, but i wouldn't go doing them because they are what others are doing. it's totally pointless. okay, let's say i went for hair extensions and someone asked me why. i would answer like this.

"i don't know. actually, i don't even like them, but i'm doing it because others are doing it too." -.-

and even so, i give it a real careful thought before following anything.

"why? do i agree with/like it? am i trying to follow others?"

i think i'm going round in circles in this argument because i'm real tired. ): but i do hope you get what i mean.

who knows? maybe if you just be yourself, others might just follow you.


don't do something because others do it, do something because you want to. ^^

and most importantly, be happy always. (: even if you can't follow trends, you can assure yourself that you don't need to, because nobody would laugh at you for being just yourself. ^^

be someone different. <3