nopes, didn't get back geog paper. like "what thing!" right? and we're supposed to confirm our marks by today. and what? we didn't even get back our geog paper. -.-

mrs charles is going to give it back to us tomorrow, i hope. so that means no going through, which means no addition of marks. ): well hope that i get back good results to pull up my languages.

and tomorrow there's class. it's monday that there's no class. haii..

i failed my chinese compo yet again. ): such a pathetic mark. 26/70. ahhhhhhhhhs! from a B3 for paper 2 to a C5 overall. that C5 would be the end of year results. shucks, C5! i can't believe it sia. crap. but at least i've passed my higher chinese. but it's going to pull everything down. like pulling down my pants. pull until i'm so embarrassed about my results. (metaphorically?) *screams*

so even though my other subjects results are like 还不错, i'm still think they are not enough to pull up a stupid C5. ): i need to get at least 80 or maybe mroe for each other subject. and don't forget still have my english. ): i screwed up my end of year results le. ):

after school, had lunch with vivian. (:

and we had pizza. yums! are you jealous? *smiles* and now i'm broke. left with $2 for tomorrow. reason: bought birthday present for ziyi. and bought the chinese book which i forgot to get the money from daddy. (: muahahahas. so i'll be suddenly $6.50 richer. ^^

lunch at pizza hut: soup was so watery. and the base of the pan for the pizza had so much oil which freaked me out. okay, i didn't hyperventilated there or something, just got scared of the oil.

one thing if someone's gonna have lunch with me and our bills are together. especially when there's gst and service charge. i cannot calculate the amount we're supposed to pay. super pathetic. :O

walked around. was on the way out of tampines mall, when we met this girl. whom i believe is part of the girls i met yesterday? so she asked us to do a survey of our priorities. this is what i put (if i remembered correctly.)

1. religion
2. family
3. study
4. friends
5. cca

okay, 3 and 4 are both on the same par. (:

so she asked us our names and i said mine. and you know what she heard? CONSTANCE my goodness. i dislike people hearing my name wrongly and assuming it's something else. i dislike people pronouncing my name wrongly. i dislike people who spell my name wrongly. oh please, it's so easy to spell. charrisa. *laughs* never really know of a name with double 'r's. maybe they think too much le. :O

so she commented that i spoke very softly. oh thank you, that's just me. (: so she assumed again that i was choir cause choir people de voice very soft. so i said no, i'm from ROBOTICS. and vivian said she's from choir. and we laughed. cause vivian's voice is much louder than mine. in her face! XD

but i'll really like to join choir. (: just with a weaker voice.

something that vivian said has got me thinking. after i asked her this: what do you want to be when you grow up?

she said she wanted to be a baker. and on with her dream. she have thought so far sia. until retire. :O

and me? i'm still lost in what i want to be.

i want to do something that i like. i cannot take a job which i don't enjoy. it kills the joy out of me and i will detest going to work. and also, i want to do something that the work is different every day, or at most every week. even doing something that i like will bore me if it's the same every day. i mean, let's take vivian's aspiration: baker. i have never baked before cause i don't have an oven but i think it's fun. but i can't imagine myself having to bake every day. it will eventually become boring.

so what i want to be when i grow up? a silly answer: a job that nobody else has. (: which means i create my own job. but thinking about it, there seem to be a job for everything. ): got a lot more thinking. i guess it will come naturally when i've become more mature.

but for now, it can be a..

1. lawyer (quite cliche)
2. photographer
3. kindergarten teacher
4. blogger
5. debater
and on it goes.....

hehhs, i blabber too much.

vivian had said for me to be an actress. O.O i nearly choke. like how can i be one? already have stage fright in front of class. no way, not possible. if i were one, pigs would fly. :D

had a freakingly scary dream. which felt so real. not sure if it was a dream or not, cause in the morning i always so blur. then i guess maybe i get lost between reality and dreamland. paiseh to write.

i'm going for MRI on saturday. forgot the time. haii.. there's about a week of school left. ): i'm getting more "depressed".

geog arhh! (don't let me down puhhh-leaseeeeeee!)