didn't blog = forgot what happened.

there's nothing up in my mind except for the urge to play, play and play! ^^

but sad to say,

i need to go study geog and e.lit.

and, i need do my maths presentation.

my group needs to prepare for english presentation.

and whole lots more that i (for don't know what reasons) worry about, so much that i forgot what they are. :X

i don't want my life to be so packed and busy. i want to have my own free time. no tuition. no cca. just want to play all day. go out. shop. watch movies. go to unknown places in singapore. and travel!

another thing i want to do.

to find that lost confidence in me.

i don't feel confident in anything. myself, studies, my life. whatever it is.

i mean like, my studies is "good". but i don't feel like i was the one who made it that way. no confidence in anything. after every test, always say "sure fail de.". what kind of a person curses on her tests? o.o (ohh, that would be me.)

kays, even if i am "smart", it still doesn't show cause. i'm an awfully careless person. let's take my maths test as an example. i could have gotten full marks. just that the ever careless me, wrote the wrong formula and caused a chaos in everything else related to it. ._. and the wrong formula thing is not because i didn't know how to do. i had wrote the right one, changed it (for don't know what reason). crap man.

being "smart" also no use. if the smart-ness got washed away by carelessness and stupidity. the worst feeling i hate is when i know the answer but got it wrong because of being careless. i just feel like knocking my head into a wall (but that would be foolish.).

and there i go, rambling away. don't know what nonsense i'm talking about also.

i'm having like lots of things up there. running around like some eccentric freaks. but i just can't remember them all.

what's with my mind? i'm getting more forgetful as each day passes. is it playing tricks on me? remembering things from the past and using those memories to trick myself into thinking i had already done them.

who knows, i might even forget myself. but who would care anyway?

everything sounds so emo-ish now. but there's lots more up there. but if i wrote it down, it's gonna get naggy.





i just wanna drop everything down and fly away.

replies:

Jack: Crap!! NOO!!! haha Dun get Influenced By Linying / Twins! LOL NOO DUN GO DUN GO DUN GO!!! LOLOL!!! haha If nt later end up 1 go all go again... haha! =X
:P

ahjon: sasa is made of bones =0 i'd text u on monday to wish u luck uh! hahhas, u &vjc. hmmm... *no promise, i try to rmbr*
i'm not made of bones. .-. and thanks in advance if you can remember! :D

weiling: hellos :D
hellos :D hope your abrasion heals fast! ^^